The Sweet Forbiden....

My mind riddled..
..with the memories..pictures…
..You on my mind all the time..
I can’t seem to escape…
I am your prisoner…
The fierce force of my free spiritedness.
..rendered null..
Self-control unhinged....
Bound by your spell…
..am in a never ending trance...
I cant move...I cant speak...

Trying to stop thinking of you..
..An effort in futility..…
I try so hard..
But the more I try the stronger the pull....
You are tattooed…
..in my brain cells…
Your being flowing in my veins….
My heart palpitates with excitement..
..The thought of seeing you again...
You have possessed my whole being…
Not a second,a minute..passes by..
Without having sweet thoughts of you…..

I find myself saying your name out loud…
…when am alone…
I almost blunder…by calling someone else…
..Your name….
Confused I am…
..Scared that I might like you..
..more than I want to…more than you like me.....

Is it useless that I have ran away..
..all these years…?
Yet our paths cross again…
And I wonder is it fate..
Or cupids stupidity…?
The arrow has shot through my heart…
I feel it’s too late..
Can I pull it out..discard it…
Seal my heart…
Never to open it again …

I know it’s not a good idea…
I know that there is no future..
But still the likelihood of it..
Make me smile..
Thrills me…..

I fantasize about you….
When I touch myself…
I think of you…
Your soft lips on mine..
Your tender touch….
Your body against mine..
Pressing hard…
My loins burning…
Am on fire….exploding….
Consumed I am….perishing in this insane bliss….
I love..i lust..
I desire…I need…YOU…
But still; I know it’s a bad idea…
…a beautiful mistake…..


Please take me..I surrender...Consume me...