Memoirs Of A Beautiful Stranger..

Why should i give you my heart..
Yet i feel that you will make a travesty of it...
Handle it like the dust under your feet..
Trample on it and break it into little pieces.....

How can i trust you to guard my heart with your life..
When i can see you are careless....selfish..
You have thrown caution to the wind for anything i regard precious...

How can i share with you all that i hold dear..
When i see you will not appreciate it..
Taking for granted everything i hold close to my soul...
How do i give you my all...
When i know you will give me nothing......

How can i let you feel my spirit flow within you..
When i know it will be suffocated......
Dead...never to return...broken wings never to fly again....

How can i let you see my soul..
Yet every time you look into my eyes i feel my soul being gutted...
Gutted like an animal in the slaughter house...

How can i let you come close,feel my warmth..
Yet every time you make a step closer..
I feel cold as ice..freezing...trembling...
Draining the life out of me....

How can i let you have my beautiful body..
Yet i know it will be a conquest in your books..
Something to share with your friends...and brag about..
You will never treat it with majesty...
Neither will you treasure it and guard it like a precious gift from the gods....

How can i believe in a happy ever after....with YOU
Yet every time you make me cry and weep at night...
My smile fades away ever so often when am with you..
It seems like you endeavor to make me miserable....


How can i show you my emotions...
When i know very well,you will insult them...
Disregard them like garbage...
Trash them like they are worthless...
Spit on them as if they are nauseating to you....

I will not..I can not...i shall not.....I don't want to....