The Unspoken..

You want to open up..
Say all that is flooding your mind...
Every time you open your mouth....you cant speak...
....You are still waiting for the perfect moment...
You don't want to run your mouth like a lunatic..
You want the words to be perfect..precise...
It has to be the moment that is written..faultless...
...And when you finally do open up...
You realize you should have just shut up....that you really shouldn't have..
....

So many times you have stopped yourself from reaching out..
speaking out....
Always waiting for the right time...
But the time you think is right..Is not always the right time..
You end up wishing you said nothing....
You wish you ignored it......

Even when you think you have read the signs..
So clearly...
When you decide to let it flow
Releasing your mind from the torture of being a prisoner of all the unsaid...
You take a deep breath and decide its now or never...
You feel that its the time... time to say what you feel inside....
..............but when you finally do
...you realize it was a bad idea..
You shouldn't have...
The tiny voices in your head that were dictating you to say...now are there no more..
Awkwardness....Embarrassment....
You are left with a resounding feeling of rejection..
You feel foolish....
You were not guided well.....
Why did i follow my instinct..why did i listen to the voices..you ask....

Truth is;not saying is a burden
Most are heavy laden with the unspoken...
They fear..rejection
They fear to be mocked......
They don't want to deal with the unexpected response....
Silence plays...it seems wise...
But how long will your mind remain in limbo with all these thoughts...
How long will you let yourself be driven insane with the unspoken...
How long will you keep mum just not to be rejected....
Is it better to be tortured in silence..or to speak and be free...


Emotions....the battle we fight everyday..
Feelings....the load we carry on our shoulders every single minute
SILENCE........the cowardly way we refuse to deal..to live life....
The unspoken word....choking the life out of us everyday....
But are we bold enough..to SAY IT.....and at what price?