Untitled....

Retreating back into the shadows..
Hiding away from it all..
Regretting the exposure..
wishing you could turn back time...
wishing you listened to the self-cautions..
....read the warning signs...
Your screaming conscience..trying to pull you back...
But you fought to go forward...
Defiance...foolishness...

Drawn to the danger..the enigmatic aspect of it all..
the supposed "happy" feeling you get...
The promises of excitement...life changing experiences...
...happiness beyond belief<------all lies!!
Attracted to what lies behind...the unsaid..unseen...unknown
..
Curiosity will surely kill..
But who cares...you dont care...
You insist on pressing on...
Believing you will handle it..
."My pillars for support are intact",you say....
Your grip tight..not to worry..you will be alright...

Then it all comes tumbling down..
You lose your grip...
Caught off-guard..baffled..confused..
Crashed underneath the pillars....ironical isn't it?
What is going on here?...you did not see it coming...
What a mess..everything destroyed...
Things will never be the same again...can never be...

You still try to be calm after the storm...keep up with the charade...
..But inside you are burning..like acid running through your veins...
It makes no sense...Everything seemed perfect...

Foolish child...the heart is not smart...
delusions..fairy tales...temporary insanity..
Certain things will never change...
After so many decades..its still the same old Bullshit...
You should have been wiser,but its too late...


You wonder and ask why..
...There are no simple answers..
Such is life...things are just the way they are..
No warning signs before you collide...
.No notice;that your life will be thrown into disarray...
Its not fair..its not right...
But life is not fair.....

From your superficial fantasies...
....to an everlasting nightmare..
Choking you..cant breathe...
You struggle to get free...but its too late..
The life is slowly draining out of you...
Your tortured soul floats away...
..In misery..dejected...
such an anti-climax...

And even in death you are still not free....forever bound...